I've been thinking to myself how I'm going to get people to believe in me and trust me if they don't know anything about me. So this post is aimed to give a little more detail about myself
My name is Taylor Watson, I am a 17-year-old boy from Gloucestershire. I grew up in a fairly rural area, so I had a nice upbringing (meaning not around any violence). I went to a small primary school where I was 1 of 4 black people in the entire school. It was a nice school but I wasn't shy of favouritism due to being in an athletic school during the time I had weight issues. I was never the favourite, and it was very apparent, But, it is no longer an issue (that is a story for later).
I was fairly bright achieving near the top of the class but up until my SATs where I didn't do too well. Then this brings me to secondary school, I wasn't sure about the black to white ratio at that time but it started from the first week. Weird to me at the time, the kids in the year above insisted my name was Toby (derived from the film roots) as it was hilarious to them as they were just taught it. For the next 3 years my name was "Tyson", "Tyrone" and others as my name was not black enough for them. Of course, I heard the name "Nigger" and "Nigga" said towards my direction at least 3-4 times a week (I don't like the words but I have to be honest in these posts because if they're not addressed in their complete form, they won't be heard)
As I got older and more independent, I started to realize eyes following me in shops, dirty looks on the streets and I saw myself and sometimes do still see myself as a misfit in the society and the area that I live in. Honestly, I don't think that this is going to change significantly in my lifetime but I think that it will change in my children or grandchildren's lifetimes and that's what matters to me. I know that change doesn't happen in a day but as long is it does happen, I can be happier.
This was followed by a large amount of shame and anxiety because this made me hate my skin and continuing with weight issues, my mental health wasn't doing to good until I started to make a change. It took 3 years of it before I actually started to do something about it. At the end of Year 6, My mum got the money to get me a bike and in year 9, I was finally big enough to ride it. From that, for a few months I started cycling with a friend after school. It took a while for the weight to come off, but with dieting and cycling for about 5 miles (8.05 km) a day at the same time as doing 50 push-ups, 150 sit-ups and 200 Russian twists, I was able to lose most of the weight. I partially slowed down until this year when I signed up for a free 6-week membership at my local gym (It was to help students during the exam season) where I would go nearly every day for at least 1.5 hours. This caused me to get the point where I am today. (If this blog picks up, I will release before and after photos.)
(This post isn't in chronological order)
In December 2018, I was asked if I would like work experience at a cyber security company and I happily accepted. During that time, I was doing some of the work that I am doing to this day and I loved it. Hence why I asked to have a meeting with one of the directors and asked him if there was a possibility that I could have an apprenticeship and some time after asking I received an email asking if I would like the apprenticeship, I great fully accepted.
Skip to September of 2019, I started the apprenticeship and started doing the work I do today. Since I've started, I've gone to many events and schools and sadly I can say that I not met one black person that works in cyber security and I have met 1 black person that works in cyber. Even at the events that I go to, I am the only black person in the room and there is normally other 1 or 2 people of colour in a room of 40 plus. And that why I want to make a change, I currently don't see any people succeeding in making a change to this so that's why I think it's my chance to try. If this doesn't succeed, hopefully it will bring someone from the next generation to be inspired and carry the torch.
That is it for now. Thank you for reading.