Living life as a Passenger
When you read this title you must wonder what I mean. Well the best place to put it as I feel like I'm living life in a diluted form of the sunken place from the movie "Get Out" whereas I feel like I'm in this void or underwater and watching life and my decisions go on. Don't get me wrong, I have control over what I say and do. But at the same time, its like I'm not really alive and everything that I live is a few seconds ahead of what I feel.
This doesn't cause problems in my job or in my social interactions but a problem inside because I want to feel alive again and I don't know what I have to do to be able to achieve this. I don't know if it will come from a getaway or an experience or if it will come from earning something like money. At times this can get very frustrating because I want to know how to change this and I feel like once I get out of this, I will be able to take over the world and do more than what my heart is set on.
A plus side to this is it is amazing for my emotions. I am able to breeze through events without feeling anger or sadness which yes seems a bit bleak but, helps a lot when it comes to helping others and making the best decisions. If there is anyone else who feels like this. Please contact me, so I can get a better understanding of how you feel.
I don't think this is something that I need help with as I feel like I'm partially in control and not in control. As in, it is like I am walking underwater and everyone else is on land which may not sound pleasant but to me it doesn't sound like anything. It's just how I feel.
This one didn't really have a direction really have a direction but it's just a bit more about me.