As time has gone on and as this year has progressed. I have constantly asked myself "What's the point". And this isn't teen angst talking. This is looking into the world and trying to understand what the f*ck is going on and what do I think about it all?
So many things happen on a day-to-day basis which shouldn't be expected, but we're in a society where it is. There aren't really any examples for this but just take a moment to look around and see that there's no way to win life other than this absent definition of happiness and success which seems to be changing by the day but also in the same way never moving. Do I try to be happy or do I try to make as much money as possible? Do I work on this or do I try to do this and try to stick to a direction of demonstrating anger to the abyss and victimizing myself from how I look knowing that there's an astronomically low chance that I gain any traction form this because it's just another blog?
What I'm trying to say is that nowadays I just feel jaded and deep down I know that everyone else is too which makes it worth less with us being in a society where being different is what makes us "special" yet we're just the same.
Some may read this and think that I'm just being "woke" and there's a large chance that if you're reading this, it's just from my LinkedIn and you're browsing because you're bored. And if so, why not send a message and let's talk about your day because I'm bored and would like to know a bit more about you? The conversation doesn't have to be about anything. Just a conversation.
Progression nowadays is hard. In the past year, I've gone from going to a quiet secondary school to working full time in the field that I saw myself in 5 years later than what I planned to then be and starting a degree apprenticeship 6 months+ early. I feel what I need is a break but at the same time I feel like I still want to do more.
I think one of my main issues is that I want to start so many things but I don't know what to do first. For example, I want to learn more about being a SIOC analyst. But, I also want to learn about investing (If anyone reads this is knowledgeable and wants to give some advice, I'm all ears and it would be appreciated). I also want to get more into music creation and media creation but I have no idea where to start. Pretty much, I'm just aching to further find myself and develop myself but I'll say why I can't in the next post. I hope you enjoyed the read.